I'm a housewife. A stay-at-home mom. A future home school mom and generally a I-would-rather-be-outside-the-house-than-stuck-at-home type of person. This feeling of wanting to be on the move, experiencing different things, definitely makes being a stay-at-home mom challenging at times. It's easy to fall into "I need ME time!" moments. It's easy for me to become bored and grow discontented if I'm stuck at home for, oh, say, two days in a row? (That's too much home time!!) I'm the type that needs to get out and get some fresh air. I need exposure to new things so that I can feel like my brain is thinking about more than just diapers and What Will Keep a Two Year Old Entertained for More Than Two Minutes. This is my challenge in life right now.
Coincidentally, my challenge is also my greatest blessing because that's just how God works. He gives you the best but it's not always easy. I have a fantastic husband who works a job that enables me to stay home if I want. And I DO want, really. I want to raise my kids and be a part of their lives and explore the world with them. I want to imagine, create and dream and help foster theirs. I want to be COOL MOM #1 and for them to look back fondly at their childhood with good memories of me. Yup, as you can see, it's really about me and the image I want. However, every image comes with a price tag attached.
The price tag for me to be the cool mom is to come up with ways to make learning exciting. It is to come up with activities that keep my children's brains engaged. That, my friends, as many of you know better than I, involves tremendous amounts of self sacrifice. It means giving up time to be "me" and making my day all about them, really. It means being consciously aware of where they are at, not only physically, but mentally and spiritually and being able to adapt to that and address the various issues that come up as a result. It means putting down all the things that I want to be doing, or think I should be doing, and picking up Mega Blocks and building towers. It means setting aside The Faerie Queen and Les Miserables sometimes in order to read Maisy. Sometimes it means sitting by a bathtub and watching "gleefully" as my son drops a ball into the bathtub water - repeatedly - for 5-10 minutes straight, laughing all the way like he'd discovered the world's best joke. It means walking away from the computer when someone says "HELP!" in response to frustration with getting a toy car to stay on its race track. I don't always do this very well.
The middle-ground "compromise" for me these days seems to be in making every attempt to learn how my child learns. I'm really having a great deal of fun learning how to teach my son (and future children!). I'm exploring educational options and activities, hunting down community groups that would have something to offer us, and reading books on curriculum/multiple intelligences and learning styles. This blog will, in some ways, become an outlet of a different sort of reading. I'm still reading to know but instead of reading to find out about various world views, I'm learning how to build one.
This is new territory to me but I am truly excited to explore this new frontier and start this new phase of my life. I'm giving up Me Time to be Mommy right now. My kicks and giggles are frequently found in learning how to better amuse and educate my son. (The reading for me thing continues on because I really think I'd seriously pass out and die if I wasn't reading books that were pleasurable and fun. That's my sanity and sometimes my saving grace. Books are oxygen for my brain and I cannot pretend otherwise. This is why Reading to Know will always be about MY books!) But I'm going to share my blog with my son to some degree and I hope you'll participate and be a part of our adventure in your own unique ways.
I know I love hoping around to your blogs and hearing about your lives and those of your children. I glean from you and am getting ready to share some of my own stories and situations.
I am a mom. I am a mom who needs to keep learning and keep growing personally and while that fact doesn't stop for motherhood, it is changed by it. I think that is not only exciting - but healthy. I'm encouraged and excited by the future that lives within my own home and if I can learn how to share the least little bit of that on this site, then I will be satisfied. But in the meantime, stay tuned for some rambles. I've a long way to go!