"After all, that's the purpose of reading about godly men and women - to break free of those things that have held us hostage and hindered our relationship with Christ and others long enough." (page 211, Conclusion)It's almost painful to write up reviews and personal applications because I'm so focused on them, speaking of my internal processing. At times I feel a bit like Eustace in The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, having layers of dragon skin pulled off of me by lion claws. It's a good thing. But it is a hard thing. That said, it's also good to write up these "reviews" because it forces me to really think through what I've read and make those personal applications (that need to be made!)
Honestly, Joseph, and these books, are an interesting progression in my spiritual walk. In reading David (: A Man of Passion and Destiny) I felt enthusiastic about the start of this year. I started focusing on the fact that God calls us in different ways and to different jobs. We don't all look the same (thank God Himself!) and I felt I was given freedom to pursue my own spiritual walk. In reading Esther (: A Woman of Strength and Dignity) I was impressed by the fact that God's timing is not my own and His ways aren't my ways. See, these things I may know in my heart of hearts but my head forgets them frequently and needs constant reminders. God isn't asking me to be anyone other than the me He created and He is going to work things out in my life according to His purpose, plan and design. I must continue on in patience.
If I were to tack on the "continuing message" from these books I would say:
1. I am created for a purpose (David);
2. God will work that purpose in His time frame (Esther) ; and
3. God will work in ways that may be painful, but He will teach me to live in the pain, through the pain and beyond it and can work in me a tender heart as a result of it (Joseph).
Joseph didn't have an easy life. He was favored by his father and therefore he didn't get along with his brothers. He was, in fact, sold by his brothers into slavery. As a slave, he was falsely accused by his master's wife and thrown into prison, where he lived for two years. Then, one night, the Pharaoh of Egypt had a dream that no one could interpret. Joseph was called out of prison to stand before this powerful ruler and declared that he himself was unable to interpret the dream - but that God could. Joseph is able to minister to the Pharaoh (and the entire country of Egypt) because he had a right relationship with God. However, there were thirteen years between the time that he was first sold as a slave and then was elevated to a place of power and position in Egypt. Thirteen years and Joseph didn't know what God was going to do. He hoped. He prayed. But he didn't know.
"I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time- waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God- it changes me."Joseph, no doubt, did quite a bit of praying. But it wasn't changing God's mind. As Joseph said to his brothers (the same ones who had sold him as a slave and told his father he had been killed:)
- C.S. Lewis
"You intended to harm me, but God meant it for good." (Genesis 50:20)I know from experience, and no doubt many of you do also, that it is not easy to say, "God means this for good" when you are in the pit of pain. Somehow, Joseph was made to realize this and as a result, he lived. He was not defeated by his memories. Swindoll says this:
"You and I choose what will hold us hostage. We make a choice about who is going to hold us under their thumb. We can often decide who and what will depress us. There isn't a person reading this who doesn't have a store of painful memories that could absolutely defeat you. But they need not. You may need help in turning the wound into a stingless scar. You may need a friend, a mate, even a professional counselor to come alongside to help you in the process of getting rid of those stings. Learn this wonderful lesson with me: We do not need to be defeated by bad memories." (Page 86)I note a few things from Joseph's life from what Swindoll says here: 1.) God can help to remove the sting of pain and heal wounds. 2.) There will still be a scar. But it doesn't have to sting. 3.) This healing process likely won't happen overnight. Remember, Joseph had thirteen years between being betrayed by his family and sold into slavery, before he saw them again. We aren't made to know what would have happened if Joseph had seen them the next day. So I know these things:
a.) I can choose forgiveness and to work on wounds.
b.) God can conquer the sting.
c.) I still have to deal with the fact that He works things in His way and in His time. Not my time. His time.
Swindoll prayed a prayer in this book and I think I will conclude this post with the words he prayed over his readers:
"Lord God:As far as I'm concerned, Swindoll's prayer was answered for me specifically in this regard:
I have no way of knowing who is reading my words today or what he or she is going through at this time in life. But I do know this: You are still El Shaddai, the God of unlimited might, boundless power, overwhelming stregnth. No obstacle formed against You can hold You back. No one intimidates You and nothing is too hard for You. Furthermore, since you know the end of the story - Joseph's story, as well as our story - You have the ability to work everything out, so we have no reason to fear.
But we're only human. That means we tend to be negative, horizontally focused, and intolerant of new ideas. However, we have come to the place in our lives where we are sick and tired of those tendencies. We need Your El Shaddai strength to help us break those habits and we need Your El Shaddai might to face the future courageously.
With Your help, we start today. Give us fresh hope to think positively to trust in Your sovereign control over everything we shall encounter. Calm our fears. Give us fresh courage and a strong confidence in You, Make us contagiously enthusiastic as we begin this new way of thinking and living. Turn our focus from the horizontal to the vertical. Help us to grow old gracefully, saying, "Yes" to life's challenges and "I'm open" to life's changes.
I ask this in the all-powerful name of Jesus Christ. Amen."